POEMS:

just a few random poems.... idk not that great?


This is the story bout me and you,
and everything that we been through
You showed me something that I couldn't see
you made it so real
You opened my eyes
you made me believe
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
This ain't no fairytale kinda story babe,
This was real.
Never thought that one day I'd be able to tell you how I feel.
I watch you talk, you didn't notice
your laughs the best thing ive ever heard,
Don't you remember that night,
that Saturday night,
you took my hand and it felt so right.
When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.
I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve,
Feeling lucky today
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me ,
if it were up to me ,
id chose to be with you ,
you can have this heart to break






This is just another story bout boy meets girl,
Boy leaves her
Crashes her world.
I said I'd always be your friend,
took an oath,
I'm a stick it out till the end,
i know it's never simple,
not knowing what I would find
I didn't read between the lines
tell me why ,
your so hard to forget,
dont remind me,
im so not over it,
I can't even look at you,
I don't need you but I do,
i cant face the truth,
im just not over you .
 I never knew I could feel that much
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay,
all I can think is We should be together
I would give it all up to be
A part of this, a part of you
i have Time If that's what you need
i know that if i turn around you won't be there
But I'd rather you be mean
No matter what you say
I'd rather hear the truth,
rather see you walk away,
maybe someday we'll give this a try .
but till then life goes on





next to you is where i should be,
something i want, so bad
have you ever had that feeling ,
your drawn to someone,
give me time now,
you know im gonna be there,
dont be scared to put your trust in me,
i dont know what kinda girl you prefer,
i think i got the kind of love you deserve,
Maybe now is our best chance
To finally get it right,
Someday it will come together
we will work it out
I know we can turn it up all the way
Cause this is our someday<3



It's been one hell of a year,
In my own shoes,
But I got some questions for you,
'cause love only comes
Once in a while
knocks on your door
throws you a smile
takes every breath,
And sings to your heart
But if I knew then
What I know now
Id know right away,
When they say,
loves looking good on you .
I could go anywhere,
i could do anything,
but all Id want to do,
is lay back here with you,
grow a love so true.


I was walking in the wrong direction
Cant even recognize my own reflection,
scared of life,
scared of love,
been playing on the safe side
Building walls around my heart,
just to try and save me,
time for me to let it go
I'm ready to feel again,
Im not afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
trying not to fear,
of how it might end
I guess
I'm ready to love again

Quotes :

some quote i made up, and others are ones ive collected... 

imitation is the highest form of flattery ♥

If you wanna know something, ask me. Don't assume. That's how drama starts

waiting for someone you love is never easy, especially when the one you're waiting for isn't aware that you are waiting.

I want you to look at me like you've never looked at anyone else. I want you to look at me like I have something , other girls don't.

Sometimes, the right thing for you, is the wrong thing for someone else.

i just love when people can't have their own opinion about someone.. they just believe what everyone else says..

If she gives you another chance after you messed up, she really likes you, so don't mess it up again.

if hes really in love with you, he'll give you no doubt that he's not

when people come to u with their problems you don't have to have the right answer most of the times they just want someone to listen

Don't leave something good to see if you can find better, because once you realize you had the best, the best found better.

reality of fear: youre not afraid to try again. you are just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.

the worst thing in the world isnt being alone. its being surrounded by people that make you feel like you are alone

 

Every man is afraid of something. That's how you know he's in love with you; when he is afraid of losing you.

 

If you wanna change your present, don't take the past with you, start a new life to be the change in your future!

 

I hate when someone you haven't heard from in a long time asks you to do them a favor. How about you do me a favor and forget my number?

 

I told myself that I don't love you anymore. But why do I get jealous when I see you with her?

I've stopped trying to keep in touch with people who don't care to try to keep in touch with me..If they have better things to do, so do I.

dear anonymous, love me

so im going to write an anonymous letter to someone Ive recently lost in my life, because i have so many things bottled up that i wish i could say to this person, and i know he doesn't want to hear them, but i have to get them out somehow, so here goes nothing... 
i dont really know where to start, but here it goes...

Dear Anonymous, 
i honestly don't understand what happened to us... are last argument, it was just so stupid. and for that to be what ends us, it just kills me... i don't even know how that argument started? we were fighting about things that happened years ago.. things that you were never mad about, and now your choosing to be mad about them? and honestly it felt like you were just trying to fight with me at that point, because you kept throwing every mistake ive ever made right back in my face, im sorry im not perfect.. but you aren't either. but even when you threw all of my mistakes in my face, i didn't do that back to you, did i? no, i was trying to defend myself? and you said that made me pathetic? i just don't understand.. but its sad thinking that over two years, of us being best friends and more, was thrown away over one stupid argument we had . 
but even now, you are telling all these people things that aren't even true about me, just so that everyone will hate me now? why? im leaving you alone, you should be able to leave it be now, im not doing anything to you, so why cant you just stop? The saddest part is , all these people are even believing you now, because they are that immature, and they cant have an opinion for themselves? but ill thank you for that, because now i realize who my real friends are. but it just sucks now, because i can't walk around my neighborhood or just be outside, because im afraid of running into them, and have to deal with all their shit. its not that im afraid of them, by any means. i just don't want to have to defend myself to them, its not worth my time. and i really would rather not run into you every day, because that would be more then i could handle.
some things you said to me, really did hurt me , but i never could let you know that, because that's what you were trying to do, gain some kinda satisfaction out of my pain. i never knew you could hit me at such a low blow... but i was right, you never told anyone my deepest secret even though you threatened me, im happy you didn't, but still threatening that, wasn't okay.. and it really hurt me. 
i just don't know what i did to cause this between us, ever... i just wish i knew, then i could try and fix it or something, because for some insane reason i cant get you out of my head...  then seeing you yesterday, the first time since are fight, is when it really struck me, that were done, its over, everything... and it didn't even help that you had your shirt off, and were playing basketball, then to make things worse it had to start raining, so freaking sexy. it killed me, i tried to not look your way, i tried to act like i was okay, but it took everything i had to not break down into tears. i can't even explain why, its like every part of me just wanted to go up and talk to you. but you ignoring me, would hurt more then anything.
but its funny cause i bet nobody else would ever guess how much i truly am hurting, because Ive learned to smile, and laugh and be okay when im in front of people, but what they don't know what happens when im by myself, and i just fall apart. but i wonder if when you saw me yesterday, that you could still tell exactly what i was feeling and thinking like you used too because i saw you keep looking my way. but unlike you, im terrible at reading what your thinking, and feeling, and its just so hard. 
but just know, that i still think of you every single day, and not the bad things, all the good things, like i can still remember the first time we talked and how you were so mean to me, when you didn't even know me, but then you got to know me, and changed your whole opinion of how you viewed me,now its just making me wonder do you still think of me as all those things? just do you remember how you told me everyday , how much you loved me, how beautiful you thought i was, and how you always told me i wasn't fat, you gave me piggy back rides, you held my hand in front of your friends, you would always hangout with me if you could, you picked me over your friends, you didn't treat me any differently when we were with your friends, you held me and let me cry in your arms, you always were there for me best as you could be, you listened to me talk for ever about nothing, you can always make me laugh, but as easily can make me cry, you counted every time you ever kissed me, but its like that list can go on forever and ever, but now its like all these bad things are happening in my life, and with us,
i know we have been through a ton of bad things, but that's how we got through them, because we were together, and now that we aren't its just like im facing the world alone, and it was so much better when it was us against the world... there's just so many things i wish i could talk to you about, because im going through so much, and i really don't know who i can turn to.. 
i just miss you is all, and i wish i could do something to change this, but i really don't think there's anything i can do, you were the one to end this, so it should be you who fixes it? shouldn't it...
but babe, you don't even know how easily it would be for you to fix things, just simply say your sorry, and you know id be right back in your arms. <3
so i continue this letter on and on, but the bottom line here babe, i guess im just waiting for the day, that you realize what a mistake you made..
but until then, no matter all the things that were said, just know that i will always be here for you, no matter what happens. if you ever need me, i will be there in a heartbeat.
- i will always love you, courtney.




i gave you everything i ever had to give and that wasn't enough to even make you stay.. well your no good for me anyway.. </3