someone?

I need someone to prove to me that I’m worth it; really worth it to them. Maybe all I need is a person who can show me that everyone is not the same. Honestly, I thought you were that person but I was wrong. Is it too much to ask for someone to take a risk on me? To fight for me? To actually care enough to not let something go the way I did for you? You never even thanked me. I acted the way I did because I cared. I didn’t realize it then, but I do now. I don’t do that for just anyone. So, call me crazy, but today, today I realized that I can’t keep waiting for you. I’m moving on. I can’t stay in one place waiting I can’t be around you anymore. I’m not over it, I don’t get over things fast; I never have. No matter how much I try and convince myself, I’ll see you around sometime. I keep thinking maybe somehow, something will click and everything will go back to the way it was in the beginning. Maybe we could go back to that, but too much has been said and done. So, maybe you’ll get one more chance from me. Maybe you won’t.

so true!

The first kiss is the passionate one; it’s the one filled by desire and attraction and all that. But the second one is rational; you get time to think about it, worry and over analyze. Most women prefer that first kiss, but I’m partial to the second one because it’s about something more.

besties

Why is it we always fall for our best friends? Is it because we know we can trust them? Is it because we know them so well? Is it because of the way they know exactly what’s going on in our heads? Or is it because they are there any day, anytime, anywhere without the promise of kisses, intimate touches or whispered sentiments of love? I think we love them because they are there when there is nothing in it for them except for that little glimmer of hope that maybe someday there will be.

Some people say ‘never kiss a friend because that friend will forever be lost’ but what if the only person you are looking for is that friend you’ve never kissed.

this year

i get my yearbook today (:

where i'm a published journalist! 

(i'm not going to say this out loud, but i'm too excited to see it published, like something i created even if it is just a dumb story about school lunches, i put a ton of effort into the pictures and getting the quotes!)

there is two days left this week, 

four days next week, 

two days the following week, 

UNTILL SUMMER 2011' (:

it can not get here fast enough, i'm PUMPED!

I WILL OFFICIALLY BE A SENIOR :)

class of 2012 :)

but this summer i'm actually going to do something with my life, 

a whole lot of nothing obviously :) but other things too! like i really need to get my license, get back into shape and attempt harder for a job? yeahhh, and party, party, party must happen (: and toooooooons of pure relaxation

8 days of my junior year left,  and counting :)

but also im really excited for next week when all the seniors are gone because the hallways will actually be tollerable, and then it will oficially set in that were about to be the seniors :)

xoxo

-c

a guy

i want a guy who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me, hold my heand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. someone who would sing to me at random moments. who would let me sleep on their chest. a boy would would get mad at someone if they called me ugly or was mean to me. I want someone who would call me three times a day if he went away. someone who would let me gossip to him and would just smile and agree with everything i said. he would throw stuffed animals at me when i acted dumb and then kiss me a million times. someone who would make fun of me. just to make me laugh. he would take me to the park and put his hands around my waist and give me bear hugs all the time. he would tell all his friends about me and smile when he did it. and we'd make out in the pouring rain, he would never be afraid to say i love you, in front of his friends, and wed argue about silly things and then always make up. i want a boy that would kiss me at midnight on new years and count stars with me. who would just stay home with me on a friday night, and watch movies together under the same blanket. someone who would tell me im beautiful but not too often. who would make me laugh like no one else could. but mostly i want someone who would be my bestfriend and would never break my heart.

haa

He was an ass. He made you fall for him and he wasn`t there to catch you but worst of all he made you trust him. Made you think that he wasn`t like all the others. And you know what? He was right. He`s not like all the others. He`s worse

i'd like to believe that i'll make up one morning, and not miss him anymore. i'll finally understand that when he broke my heart it was for a reason, one i just don't understand yet, but when i do, i'll know that he messed up and not me.

weekend

so an update on my past few days, okay
Friday, i came home from school, showered, blow dried, makeuped, straightened, then went shopping with my mom for a few things, and then came home and helped her put together our new mower, it took awhile, but surprisingly we figured it out. haha. and then M came over(; and we hungout from about seven till three am (: haha it was so much fun though, and we really didn't do much of anything. and i love that(: and then on Saturday, K came and brought me and my momma strawberry lemonades from McDonald's, then me and her went up to polaris, and ate at jimmy johns, (ive never heard of it till then?) but it was good, i didn't really eat much, this sickness is making me not hungry): and shopped and shopped, and we had a terrible shopping day, UNTILL we went to FOREVER21(: my favoritee!! and kelsea was being all skeptical about it, and she ended up buying way more then i did!! well on account of the fact that i had hardly and money, or else i would of bought a lot more!! haha but she liked it((: and then we left polaris and went to McDonald's, and she got the 4burgers and 4fries, FOR HERSELF((: haha i love my best-friend, and i got a med. fry and apples (: and then we went to her house, and then kohls, and then eastland and shopped and then another kohls, and then met abi at greaters, and she bought us ice cream (: and hungout their for a bit then kelsea finally took me home. we like didn't sit down all day, from like 1245 to 930? legit. it was crazy. but my forever 21 shirt is sooo stinkinnn' cute(: i cant wait to wear it (: i might wear it today, to throw off my tragic sickness look? (: and ill update you on my sunday, later today.... its not going to be very exciting, because im SICKERRRR now . fun.

xoxo
-c