quotes i loves :)

forget the risk, and take the fall, if it's what you want, then it's worth it all.

be mindful of what you toss away, be careful of what you push away, and think hard before you walk away

if you are trapped between your feelings and what other people think is right, always go for whatever makes you happy, unless you want everyone to be happy except you

you can't be with someone you have a grudge against, let it go, or let them go.

just because you can say whatever you want, doesn't mean you always should

its better to know and be dissapointed, than to never know and always wonder

don't be a home-wrecker, if someones taken, they're taken, don't try and ruin their relationship just because you want them.

if someone makes you more upset than happy, they aren't worth your time.

haters only hate the things they can't get, and the people they can't be, don't let them get you down

when all else fails kill them with kindness

always dress like you're going to see you worst enemy

makeup can make you look pretty on the outside, but it doesn't help it you're ugly on the inside... unless,you eat it ;)

there are so many people out there that will tell you that you can't, what you've got to do is turn around and say, "watch me".

forget what has hurt you in the past, but never forget what it has taught you.

judging a person does not define who they are, it defines who you are

never be reckless with someone else's heart, and don't tolerate those who are reckless with yours.

if they can't do their part, then they don't deserve your heart.

if he doesn't treat you like a princess, then he doesnt deserve to be your prince.

High school .

Drama and fights, laughs and tears, breakups and makeups. Its rushing to grow up, then realizing you want your innocence back. It's hurting over someone elses. It's getting drunk and having your best friends hold your hair back, as you puke. then taking all the next day trying to re-cap what happens last night. It's jealous, and envy, rumors and gossip. its wannabe sluts and it's getting knocked over again and again to the point where you question if you should just stay down. Its disappointments and lies. Its those nights where you want to be alone, but you don't want to feel alone.Its those knots in your stomach that make you want to cry. a fake smile forced upon your face for so long people actually believe your happy. its getting backstabbed by your so called best friend and feeling betrayed. its hearing lie after lie so you learn to never trust anyone but yourself. its tears on your cheeks that you want to be wiped away by the person who made you cry in the first place, and not knowing why. its about growing up, meeting new people, its moving on in time, and lots and lots of time. its wishing bad things onto people out of anger, its hope for a happy future, and wishing on 11:11, its learning and discovering new things. and its hurting but still trying, its learning from the past mistakes and its laughing over someone you once cried over. its getting stronger, becoming independent. its seeing you can and are happy on your own. so what is highschool you ask? its one big realization that your so young, so carefree, and having so much fun, with a whole future at your feet. so maybe it hurts now, but that's life. it things always went the way we wanted them to, we'd never appreciate them, remember if things always went the way we wanted them to, wed never learn to appreciate anything. don't listen to anything you hear and take chances, even if its a risk of getting hurt. smile and mean it because in thirty years your going to look back on those years you rushed through, and all you'll want is highschool back. make it last.

last day!!

Okay so were finally at the last freaking day of my junior year(:

Today hasn’t been all that bad even(: cause I got a 40/45 on my sign language oral exam(: I was so happy! I didn’t mess up that much I just finger spelled some , oh well. That’s like the last real thing that I have to do all year though(: that’s bad. Yay.

But theres like only one downside cause im not doing anything at all today, so its going to take forever. Especially in mr.Phillips class. Haha.

But hopefluly tomorrow will be fuuuun(: if we get to do what me and kelsea were planning to do!(: haha

I cant believe im a senior, with a sexyass boyfriend J hahaha 

Bye!

Xoxox

-c

okay, so

okay, so its finally coming up being the last few days of my junior year. 
we have two regular days left this year, besides two days of exam for me. 
i don't have to come into school on the very last exam day, but i do have
to take five exams!? gross. haha .
but seriously, its the last few days of school & 
teachers are still giving us things to do? why??
i have no idea. haha.
but im liking all this extra credit i'm getting (: 
-passes / paper in math 
- packet in psychology
-idk ill find out today for english?


i really need the extra credit in english 
but i don't know if its going to be something i want to actually do,
cause knowing my teacher its going to be super hard and impossible. 
i'm so happy we only have two days left of his regular class. which reminds me
i haven't even started on the paper for his exam, whoops.


i don't even know what i'm going to write my paper on, 
i at least need to force myself to sit down and read all the spark notes of that book
i should of read that book, but its just so BLAH. and confusing, haha


hopefully i get to see matt tonight, that will make my day <333
he's so stinkin' adorable. haha. and we even have A and J similarities
which is so increditably creepy! (: 
5/29/11 :) yayyy
i really want to see his phone though, cause i bet its really cool
and im going to be super sad cause i want to get a new one now, 
hah like this one i looked up online last night, its so pretty and white
and not even expensive  but i dont know if thats a good or a bad thing.
haha. (: 


i wonder if my grandma is going to take me today to plato's,
i haven't asked yet, but i hope she will cause i need to sell those clothes!!
haha, i need the money so bad. i'm broke.
 even though i'm just going to go spend that money and then ill be broke again. 
but i wonder how much they will give me for it? i have no idea?
hopefully at east 20-30 bucks. but i wish it would even be more then that,
but i guess it just depends on what they wanted to buy from me??
should i sell my purse? cause i actually am thinking about it? if its not dirty then 
i probably will end up selling it too? and that purse alone should be at least 20.
at least i'm hoping that it would be?? it should be?? i don't know. 


i hope i get a good enough amount because i want to buy me a new phone!!!!!!! (:
and hopefully ill get that job at noodles or anywhere else ive applied? haha cause i need
to be making some BANK, asap. cause i hate not having money. its so annoying. 


me and kelsea are hopefully going to get canes soon, or i might just go with my mom? haha
but eiher way i want to try canes out soon cause to me everyones making such a big deal about 
it i have to see for myself what the big deal is!


but i really want the mac and cheese from panera ive been craving it all day long! it sounds so good!  


okay well i still have fifteen minutes in here but i dont know what else i have to report, if anything
so ima go 


bbl,
xoxox
-c

someone?

I need someone to prove to me that I’m worth it; really worth it to them. Maybe all I need is a person who can show me that everyone is not the same. Honestly, I thought you were that person but I was wrong. Is it too much to ask for someone to take a risk on me? To fight for me? To actually care enough to not let something go the way I did for you? You never even thanked me. I acted the way I did because I cared. I didn’t realize it then, but I do now. I don’t do that for just anyone. So, call me crazy, but today, today I realized that I can’t keep waiting for you. I’m moving on. I can’t stay in one place waiting I can’t be around you anymore. I’m not over it, I don’t get over things fast; I never have. No matter how much I try and convince myself, I’ll see you around sometime. I keep thinking maybe somehow, something will click and everything will go back to the way it was in the beginning. Maybe we could go back to that, but too much has been said and done. So, maybe you’ll get one more chance from me. Maybe you won’t.

so true!

The first kiss is the passionate one; it’s the one filled by desire and attraction and all that. But the second one is rational; you get time to think about it, worry and over analyze. Most women prefer that first kiss, but I’m partial to the second one because it’s about something more.

besties

Why is it we always fall for our best friends? Is it because we know we can trust them? Is it because we know them so well? Is it because of the way they know exactly what’s going on in our heads? Or is it because they are there any day, anytime, anywhere without the promise of kisses, intimate touches or whispered sentiments of love? I think we love them because they are there when there is nothing in it for them except for that little glimmer of hope that maybe someday there will be.

Some people say ‘never kiss a friend because that friend will forever be lost’ but what if the only person you are looking for is that friend you’ve never kissed.