when you lose someone....

when you lose someone, someone you love. when they break your heart. it’s the hardest thing you could ever go through. and no matter how much time has past, the sting of the pain never really ever goes away. you may think you’re getting better, but then you have a flashback, or you hear a song that reminds you of a memory the two of you shared together. it hits you all over again, and all at once. like a stab in the chest. you start to fall apart for the hundredth time, and all you really want to do is just run away from the rest of the world. you love this person with all of your heart, even though you know you shouldn’t. they’re no good for you, all they do is steal your happiness and make you cry, and you don’t know why but all you want to do is be with them, and only them. other people come along and you give chances hoping you might move on, but you know you don’t want to. it upsets you to move on, because you promised to be with no one but him, and even though he broke his promise, you want to keep yours because your a girl of your word. on top of that you’re terrified. terrified of being hurt again. but it’s not like it matters anyways because at the end of the day you still go to bed thinking about the one who left you completely broken. you don’t want to miss them anymore. you don’t want to love them anymore, but you know you always will.

xoxo

-c